This one came about as I tried to get my head round why people play around, almost deliberately, go all out to f**k around with other people’s lives, emotions, feelings, love, relationships.
This seems to be in 4 different stages, the questions, the answers and the result of finding these out and then the outcome.
Firstly it was about a collective ‘we’, this I would say was about removing yourself from the situation, knowing it isn’t just you, in a sense of there are others out there who have experienced the same and also that you’re not the first, nor, sadly, will you be the last to be treated in that way by people like that or indeed that person.
The next part was the journey to see where you are and where you’ve been in order to build up your own courage, confidence, self worth and self esteem.
The next one is to find the answers, see the answers, see your own part and see their part.
All the while growing into your own self again!
In a lot of ways it is about gaining back the control, yet this time in an empowering way, rather than just being powerful, which is what people who tread with fear do.
I made a few changes in this final edit, but the main body of the poem stays the same.
What are the signs of a player?
How do we know what they set out to do?
What makes us a victim?
Is it that we’re clear and true?
Do we have a certain naivety?
Is it because we trust
or is it that we build a wall and break it down they must?
Is it that we’re their reflection
yet they seem to recognise it more?
Is it because we show vulnerabilities that they can get in the door?
Do we see the vulnerabilities they hide behind their fear
or the barricade that they put up
so they don’t let anyone near?
Do they see in us how it can be done
yet they understand it not,
so they try to make us see it’s wrong
and hurt us such a lot?
When they see our pain,
as a reminder for them,
They then continue to shut us out
so they can then just be.
We let their words inflict pain,
we’ll even accept the fists
and even when we try to talk,
our words are given twists.
This seems to give them power,
it keeps them on a high,
they then step up and manipulate and inside we start to cry.
We lose our intuition,
our faith resumes to lies,
our confidence is at a low and our self-esteem just dies.
We believe that we are useless
and see their words as true
and disbelieve what we once felt
and think we’re rubbish too.
How did we lose our self-worth?
Why did it stray aside?
What made us stop believing in ourselves
and lose our sense of pride?
We search and search through all our years
from birth to where we are,
anything we once achieved
seems as distant at a star.
We then find the twinkle
and a way to bring us back,
something to find pride in
and put us back on track.
We realise we’re not useless,
to love was our only crime
and although we discover all that hurts,
we may do it another time.
Although, we may then be wary,
we’ll not come in as far
we’ll take a worthwhile step back
to see if part of it we are.
We’ll feel inside our feelings,
they have not gone away.
We’ll fight to see if they’ve been destroyed
and realise they’re here to stay.
This time we may be doubtful
with caution our middle name
because we want to eradicate from our minds
that ‘men are all the same’.
The faith we have inside us
stops us feeling blue,
we open our hearts up to the world and find a love that’s true.
It starts within our own hearts,
our self-worth starts to grow
and our self-esteem and confidence, in everything, will flow.
We recognise the signs then,
we see them very clear.
We see the ones who barricade and live their lives in fear.
We recognise the lies they tell,
we’re open to their deceit.
We allow them to try and play their games
and into our lives we greet.
We show them we’re not stupid
even if it’s what they believe,
we knock down all their barriers and our love they do receive.
We don’t use them to be powered,
we just show them the way to be,
we let them see what they’re missing
and that our love is free.
Free to do with it what we want
and to spread it all around.
Little do they realise into their hearts it’s bound.
They’ll continue with their stupid games
and try to keep crushing you
yet your life goes along just brilliantly
and they carry on making do.
Their next one’s already lined up
they were searching while with you
just in case there came a time you started to see through.
They’ll make out they are happy,
they’ll contact you to tell.
You’ll see their lives progressing along
and they’ll pretend that all is well.
Yet, you’re the one they turn to
when they need to face the fear,
the reason that they do this
is that they want you near.
They need you in their life you see,
to guide them on their way,
because of the strength they see in you
they start to doubt their play.
The arrogance and power
That their ego kept so high
starts to then get lowered
and inside it starts to die.
One day they may just recognise
the way they made you feel,
this all depends if they make believe
or find inside what’s real.
When they reside in make believe
they’ll cast people away.
Those who know the person you are
will be the ones who stay.
Some people will go with the player
they’ll believe the lies so clear,
yet little do they realise
it’s because they also fear.
They may not end up as players too
though they’ll live their lives in doubt.
The players who played you
will play them too
and turn their lives about.
This you cannot take on,
this is for them to see,
find joy and happiness inside yourself
and live a life that’s free.
Free from any burdens
that may just cause you pain.
Open your heart to love and joy
and feel happiness again.
Allow the doubt to come in,
let it rear its head
and when you let it go this time
the love will grow instead.
It will grow there getting stronger
each second of every day
and allow you just to live your life
and love in your own way.
Fear not those out to get you,
just recognise the signs,
and allow them just to be
with what goes on in their minds.
Rejoice in the faith
what you have found
so deep inside of you
and allow yourself to wallow
in a love that is so true.
Thank you for reading 💖