Shattered Dream
This one I wrote when I felt I had found love and I realised that I was just ‘being fixed’
When I was not taking any notice and drawn into what I was being told I didn’t even realise I was being targeted.
I questioned one part just before I left; I asked my son if he felt it was right, should I be happy, should I be crying, should they be shouting, etc.
He said that he would have thought I would be happy.
I made plans to move away and when the time came my son said, “See you in a few weeks”
It took 12 days for me to see what was happening.
Things could have been so different, in so many ways!
But they turned out how they did!
I enjoyed the journey!
I enjoyed the pathway!
I’m glad it ended!
I got what I needed out of it!
It’s a shame that it ended up being about fixing me!
I had a great time!
Shattered Dream
It seems you believe I’m hurting.
I feel you want to rescue me.
That’s fine if you’re aware of it,
although
through denial I can see.
This is why I can’t be bothered,
to walk this very route,
people seem to have an opinion
and from the hip they shoot.
I guess this could be an issue
if I feel they want to judge
but when it’s done by their own standards
they just look for sludge.
They assume ‘the crap’ that I walk with,
without seeing I’ve walked with joy,
they then go on some mission,
like there’s something to destroy.
You have not walked in my shoes.
You’ve walked on your own road.
Through that you cannot understand
the life I’ve been bestowed.
There are many who can understand,
they listen to what I say,
they hear the words I speak to them;
they get to know my way.
From there I listen to their lives,
we join together and care,
about each other as a person
and our experiences we share.
The past is part of the present,
it cannot just go away,
just because I talk of it
doesn’t mean it’s here to stay.
My life grows through expression,
I write poetry;
this can be about anything
within my society.
It’s nothing to do with holding on,
nor indeed letting go
and if there’s something I must deal with
my own body lets me know.
You said you want to know me
this would be very nice
and if at any point I need it,
I’ll ask for your advice.
If you live your life to rescue,
then do it!
Just not with me!
I came to walk as your equal
not for you to set me free.
I’m standing here beside you,
I’m holding out my hand,
for us to walk together
just to love and understand.
Thank you for reading 💖
