The Leap of Faith
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This one I wrote when I felt I was taking a leap of faith.
I was surrendering to the love I felt.
Giving in to being in love.
Doing what I wanted to do.
Having put everything in place to make it happen.
I felt supported enough to make the step.
I felt that we had worked everything out enough for me to be able to make the move.
When I wrote this poem, it was like I knew I was ready to be an equal in a relationship.
Stand tall and be counted!
I dealt with a lot and managed to make the move, then know when I needed to leave.
There was a belief in place that I was being someone I wasn’t, yet I was being me.
I concentrated on my journey.
I carried on taking my steps.
I gained my own strength.
I continued to live my life.
When it ended it felt better than when it was all happening.
It was like a relief!
They were the catalyst for me to cherish myself so when it all ended, I wasn’t missing anything.
I had gained myself and would continue with that.
The Leap of Faith
Swimming across the abyss,
where the water is so deep,
surely if I need to stop,
I’ll enter eternal sleep.
All that I have within me
is breath and length of arm
and the ability to kick my legs
to keep me safe from harm.
I went in for the first dip.
I panicked and struggled free.
I got back to the waters’ edge
to take some time for me.
I sat there on the rock pile
to take in all the length;
to make it to the other side,
will I have the strength?
Holding in a breath of mine
and trying to set the pace.
Trying to work out
the time it will take
until I next touch base.
I know I can swim strongly
and I can float upon my back,
maybe it won’t be so hard
for me to stay on track.
It’s what is there beneath me,
within those waters deep,
what may also be waiting
when I take my leap.
Is this marred with fear though
or is it just unknown?
This will be a chance for me
to see how much I’ve grown.
Do I want to see this?
Do I have a need
or can I now just free the way
for me to just proceed?
I cannot
at all
just jump in.
I’ll climb down from the side.
Easing myself in gently
so I have time to bide
the temperature,
the emotions,
the feeling of nothing below.
Getting myself ready
so I can just let go.
I grip with my foot underneath
to find a place to push.
It is time to get going!
Breath in!
Wooosh!
Off I go
with not too much back flow.
Kicking for now
until I become slow,
then arm stretched,
ready to grip my way through.
Left then right,
until I need breath anew.
I’ve no idea how far I’ve gone.
My head is in the water down.
It’s only if I stop now
that I fear that I may drown.
On and on,
I cannot stop now.
All that I have
to this I endow.
I don’t want to see
what may be below.
I can just carry on
there’s no need to know
what may hinder my way
or even get me to stop.
It may soon be time for me
to venture to a swap,
of swimming to floating,
but then there’s the restart.
I could grab a quick breath
if I plan my time smart.
So with a roll of my arm
and a tip further one way,
a quick intake of breathe
gives me time to play.
Onwards!
Onwards!
How long has it been?
This distance seems much further
than what I have seen.
Keep going!
Keep going!
You cannot stop now!
Come on!
Come on!
Onwards you must plough!
Getting tired…
Not sure if I’ll make
the place I have to reach
for the next step I must take.
Then just as I may
be ready to give up
there’s something there solid
for my hand to cup.
I’ve done it!
I’ve reached the other side!
I’ve swam the abyss!
The great divide!
With the little strength left
I pull myself out
and take a well earned rest
before I give my big shout!
My own appreciation
for my inner strength.
Knowing now
I can walk any length.
There’s no challenge left.
It’s all now a ride
of walking along
with someone
by my side.
The cavern was the heart
I have for me.
I had to cross it
to see what love would be
and now that I have
the higher heart waits
and this I will now
leave up to the fates.
Being there is such a relief.
This truly is the end
of all the steps of grief.
The things that got in the way
of any love that came along,
preventing me from growing,
trying to keep me strong.
Well my strength has shown
its real self now
and that is within release.
Surrendering to all
that was for me
so I now can be at peace.
Thank you for reading 💖
